Almost Unbroken

It's a tad past midnight Saturday night and my surgery is so close. I'm scared and really excited to get this over with. Today is my oldest daughter Lily's birthday. She turned 13 and it was a great day. Wow a teenager in the house. It made me feel a little old. Then I start to think about why I'm getting my tubes repaired. In reality restoring my fertility means a very real chance that we could have more kids. Guess what, we really want more. Yes, it will take care of the issues I'm having at the moment. We do not feel like we are done. We have some missing family members. In a perfect world I would get my twins back. That sounds so crazy!!!!  Who would wish for twins. Me I guess. 

There are a lot of fears I have with getting this surgery done and it is not the surgery per say. It's the after its all done part that is scary. I have never had to think about trying to get pregnant. I don't know if the ligation will affect my fertility or if the surgery is a success or not. I believe that everything will go well and in the end we will add to our family. I just keep praying everything will go well and we will put our faith in our heavenly father.